Wednesday, September 29, 2010

I love this band..stevie does it everytime

Now here you go again
You say you want your freedom
Well who am I to keep you down
It's only right that you should
Play the way you feel it
But listen carefully to the sound
Of your loneliness
Like a heartbeat...drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering what you had
And what you lost...
And what you had...
And what you lost

Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
Say...Women...they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you'll know

Now here I go again, I see the crystal visions
I keep my visions to myself
It's only me
Who wants to wrap around your dreams and...
Have you any dreams you'd like to sell?
Dreams of loneliness...
Like a heartbeat...drives you mad...
In the stillness of remembering what you had...
And what you lost
What you had...
And what you lost

Sunday, September 26, 2010


this is a blog about my family who i love and miss a lot today!
had a dream about my mama and brother stevie last night and there was a new batman movie on that we were going to, which is something that we would probably all do together cos we are geeky that way!

It made me sad to realise that although im super stoked to be back here....a part of me will miss home very dearly and be a little frustrated that there is nothing in my being that can be there right now. 

Maybe one day if I was fortunate enough to complete the 3 most important things in my life and find love and that may lead to a family....who knows what life will bring?

BUT in other news I had a crazy experience the other night. 

There is a girl I work with called Star and she is very very much in love with God. So me being me, we have all sorts of deep and intense conversations about Jesus and spirituality. 
She is involved with a group of people who have a weekly catch up where they worship the goodness of god, and pray for people that they feel compelled to pray for. 
I know a lot of people kind of judge Christians and all this. But in my eyes, an expression of love is just that and it isnt a bad thing and it doesnt matter where it comes from. As long as it is good. 

Anyway, so they prayed for me. They wanted to. And it was really beautiful to hear these people who had no idea talk to me in such a loving way. They also spoke of what I believed and had no idea of who  I was and what I loved. They told me about my photography amongst other things. (Its maybe on the side of a bit too personal for internet! lol) BUT it was a great experience and I am glad that I was  open to receiving that kind of good energy. 

They also prayed for my there you go guys. The Jesus freaks send their love too :)

annie out xx

Sunday, September 19, 2010

pride, love and God

I love America. 

For those of you who have never been here...they love their country too. 
There are so many american flags everywhere. People saying god bless america and so on and so forth. 

And everyone who knows me, knows how much I love to wear american flag paraphernalia also. At this point in time I am rocking an american flag patent and sequin bag, an american flag coin purse and an american flag scarf around my left biker boot circa inspiration "breakfast club" one of the greatest 80's movies of all time. 
So anyway, I took some pictures on my way out to jersey one day of all this american flag "business"

I had a talk with my coworker one day about religion and belief, God and spirituality etc etc. I love that jesus freak. 
She sent me a prayer meditation link and I fell asleep to it that night. I pretty much floated to work the next day feeling like there was a definite shift in my life.
I saw this guy outside the subway in Fulton Park, just palms up to an american flag. And we all know what palms up symbolizes in religion.
It was a beautiful thing to see, someones faith and love in everything that he believed. And to see him absorbing it all in. Maybe he was crazy, but in a city like this everyone is. 

Today I am going to beacons closet (my fave vintage store in the whole wide world) with my dear friend chris. I call him chrispy treat cos they are sweet and he is literally the sweetest person in the world and I cant help but smile when I am around him. 

So having said all that about america. Dont get me wrong, I love NZ and I love the fact that I am from there.
I was actually a little homesick this week (I know words you never thought you would hear me say)
I guess I had an emotional start to the week and craved homely comforts and cuddles from my familiar loved ones. 
But its all good now and I am looking forward to visiting NZ. But sorry team, the situation still stands. Im just a bit too happy in this country to ever imagine moving home in the near future. 

Still love you though xx

Sunday, September 12, 2010


I totally promised more pictures of the night. So here is my perspective as I was taking pictures for the Irregular Choice blog. Somehow pics for my blog ended up in the mix. 
I guess the way I photograph for myself is different than for other people. Im not interested in the glamour and masks that the fashionistas put up. I want people as they are. And instead of storefronts being flooded with people, I choose absence and surreal lighting....evidentally, this has lead me to the decision of my next lighting concept for the next installment of personal art. 

But having said all that. I still LOVE fashion and LOVE everything about it, almost.

I wish I could live my life only working on art and have that as my day maybe 

my fave customer and future burning man buddy

co worker Hope and a boy named Chance...
i love the light outside with the blues....

i love this girl 
as usual, I end up hanging with the only kids at a fashion party rocking sneakers! cos they were MY friends
another awesome customer friend. The CEO of limecrime make up. this chick rules!!!

 love xx

Friday, September 10, 2010


new york city....and can I say. BEST night ive had in new york for a hell of a long time. or maybe since last time i ventured out...

Hows this? 3 hours sleep last night (dont know why) work all day in a pair of 6 inch cherry red leather heels. Crowds of people EVERYWHERE in soho. and free drinks at all the most fabulous stores, including ours. naturally..

So Goldie and I had our break together tonight and laughed and laughed cos we were so delerious with exhaustion...and took pictures of ourselves. We dressed pretty much the same as we usually do.but cos it was FNO it seemed a bit more fun and fab

I will post more of the night soon. 
But in the mean time...get your peepers onto these :) 

THIS is my fall look.except the barefeets which I will replace with bright red vivienne westwood shoes. Oh and maybe a touch of lipstick. Well actually OF COURSE lipstiick!!!
ps. I know you ALL love it how I keep posting pictures of myself! lol 

love you xx

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

blasting this girl

So not too long ago...just another day at work. and in walks in this AMAZING looking girl with an exceptional vest. 
My co worker and I absolutely died and fell in love with her vest and as it turns out. The girl is a pretty well know/famous eyewear designer and the vest was made by her overly talented gay friend. 

So I thought I would share there websites with you. 

This lady is so fucken cool. And its only in a city like this, that shit like this happens day to day. here is her picture. 

New York style strikes again...looooooves it


Sunday, September 5, 2010


Is everything.

I truly believe that nothing is coincidental. Nothing. 

Everything that happens, even the day to day things. They happen for a reason. 
Im constantly being told that the key to "making it" is about being in the right place at the right time. Last week I went to an interview and the process all sounds very promising. The man I interviewed with said that in order to be at the right place at the right time, you have to be in the right place. 

Im also pretty sure that everything that has happened to lead me to this point has been for a reason...although right now it isnt abundantly clear exactly what the reason is. Im sure one day it will all become apparent. 
All I have to say is that living here and the mental space that Im in right now, has definitely been the happiest I have ever been in my life. Its kind of weird after being so broken down and never imagining coming out of it. I guess time heals everything. And I mean everything.

Over time you gain experience and knowledge so thats also good. 
I guess in time one needs to learn the essential virtue of patience. This is something I was having a conversation about today also. 
Being a very impatient person myself it is hard to just have faith and give things time to work themselves out. 
I know exactly what I want and I want it now. But I have to wait until the universe decides it is the right time for me to have what I want. 

Successful career. Loft apartment in the LES with hardwood floors, exposed brick and huge windows, a massive art library and a room for my shoes. True love. Travel. Art everyday. Family all the time. 2 big dogs....A beautiful life so to speak. 
It will be well deserved. 

BUT for now, I shall continue to have the most fun of my entire life. 
Last night I went out with some new friends and ended up in a hipster bar in Williamsburg...too hipster for me so I went outside to sit on some randoms car bonnet, smoke cigarettes and talk to new people. 
The last days of summer...

love xx

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

living dreams

So I talk to my friend Kate Edson every single day about totally random stuff. I always look forward to our little chats about life, love, heartache, depression, frustration, and stupid jokes about poo and stuff

Today we talked again about something random and somehow we were both like, oh yeah its in my life plan to win lotto. I told her if that happened I would travel forever and take pictures....but the thing is, I quickly realised that I have been doing that since I finished studying and most likely will continue to do it. 
In a sense, Im definitely living my dream. 

Having only just come to this realisation, I must say its  a nice mind set to be in :)

I was gonna post 2 sets of images in this blog:

The first set is of me and my friends the last time I went out proper out of control high school drunk drinking....ending in  pizza and emotional overload. (has to be done, but now i prefer to laugh the entire night and not get sad about unfulfilled expectations and disappointment etc etc)

These people are amongst some of my favorite IN THE WORLD! And I get to see them all the time now yeeeeoooowww

Here you go......

So the second set is really me and my perspective of some random things since I have been here....Leaning towards a new series of work. 
Im quite into how cinematic and voyeuristic they seem. I just love looking at people and their behavior in this colourful city. Especially in the subway. 
Have also been having a lot of religious conversations with someone I work with as she is very passionate about Christianity. Im super interested in the concept of palms facing up, it represents taking in the lord and all that is good. Palms down is the devil.

Food for thought for this little kiwi photo girl living a life in concept....